oh jeez its that time of year when you have to start doing it isn't it
the year before they didn't means test me even though i told them to adshfdsfhdskf
miraculously last year worked although i still haven't got back my mother's decree absolute
been technically financially self-subsistent for 3 years now so its going to be going on my own money details and wages etc. etc. ahhaahha i only earned like
670 a month
after tax last year
so this'll be good specially cos i'm going means tested
and cos i'm still working at THAT place i won't run out of money which oh god ever since the bad days of moving here i am not keen to return to that in a hurry i can tell you
seriously though i still hate student finance
grr how did i miss this
lol it's just a phase
can everyone shut up before i gut them because thinking back this ~phase~ has been since i was a kid and it's not even like i can just look past their idea that it's just a phase when i thought it was obvious for at least 12 years that i'm everything but a girl
haha i wish i was annoyed enough with what i was to actually get uncomfortable about it when i was little i had a short experimentation bit when i was young
and then woops my dad is all AAAAAAAAA NO about it all and i'm sorta "oh god i don't want to get into trouble ;;" as hell so i drop it completely and push it right out of my mind and then my brother becomes the real life equivalent of encyclopedia dramatica so i just sorta don't do anything about it and then the huge period of general blank started and i wasn't really anything, har and only after i actually got back in touch with planet earth did it all start appearing again but i dealt with it a lot better this time round which is good
also grrr @ people being all "????" about it
i mean i half see why they think that cos i'm not sure they kinda understand it i mean hell even i didn't at first myself but its also aggrevating the way most people seem to be "why can't you just be a ____ instead" in fact
this comic sums it up nicely har
but yeah sorry this was a lot of rambling that didn't really do anything hahaha /flail
/hug anyway