Yeah i guess i shouldn't say it but i've not felt like this for a while. It's the first time in ages i've put my art down, probably due to the way i feel in general just needed to vent and feel sorry for myself ha.
rejections hurt and they do leave you sort of floating about the academic world w/ white eyes and all "why.................................lets the mystery man........." and whatnot and its ok to throw things at the wall for a bit because the unis were not so good this year
but failure is the mother of success and just cos you're having iffy chances this year it means if you have to do it next year you're more likely to succeed
i think my uni appreciated me applying twice and saying "yeah i didn't do so well last year due to Considerations but im not giving up just like a real chemist" in a sort of more whimsical way than that obvs cos what kind of tiny personal statement would that be
like its ok to be constantly critical about your art but only if it gets something done i.e. if you're constructively critical about it like "oh my anatomy is crap i'll browse through physiology books tommorow but tonight im having gin and scowling at awful people on come dine w/ me"
like of course you're allowed a little bit of tantruming about your art too where you go "I CANT DRAW TODAY" and you throw your drawing pad on the floor because you're only human like the rest of us but just dont make it a habit like 80% of deviantart does like it will pass
on the whole i find unis for art to be a bit of an Awkward experience unless you've done a lot of prepwork beforehand
i am not sure exactly where it is or what you're in the stage of right now but have you considered looking for Foundation Year art courses instead???? unless you've just done one in which case der der der me
or possibly picking out a BA with a foundation year so that student finance covers it unless you got the Cash Money for paying upfront for it
the thing about getting into a uni for sure is you have to be v distincitve like when they ask for your portfolio if you present it in an innovative way rather than just flipping through a sketchbook and its v. hard to do this w/o thinking about it a lot beforehand
if you don't get in this year then i can honestly say its not the end of the world - - just try again next year and keep trying until you get in if its what you want to do