this was going to be a lame woe is me post about how i'm not doing anything and then going on not to do anything about it why isn't stuff getting done bluhhhhhh but it was entirely too stupid and too whiny and embarassing so i deleted the lot of it
writing it got most out of my system anyway
but i'll just summurise by saying that things feel vaguely
eight of swords right now
but we're about to get greek takeaway and i'm going to knit and i've done some kitchenwork anyway so dfdsfldsl
although one thing that is annoying me is this bizarre....well...
i've had a few nights running where for no reason i'd be overcome with a terrible malaise (it felt like i was lacking some sort of mineral or something? it was weird it was kind of a weakness related to some sort of hunger for some nutrient i'm lacking)
and in the last occasion in which it happened i was just lying on my bedroom floor feeling quite rotten until i thought ENOUGH OF THIS and got up and sorta did stuff till it went away but it wasn't fun it felt like i was coming down with the flu and i thought oh god if i come down with the flu am i going to be out of action for a fortnight
(like proper influenza does not a slightly bad cold and people are like oh god i have the fluuuu and it's like no you bloody don't if you had the flu you wouldn't be able to get out of bed you have a cold that's it)
but yes hopefully it wont' happen tonight i feel fairly fine atm so