"what happened i miss you"
Wanna know what happenened? What happened began a long time ago. Back in november, we disocvered your cousin was sick with cancer, which then turned to a brain tumor. The doctors failed to remove the brain tumor, and she soon died in early january. I was with you though this entire thing. Then you began telling me you didn't want to, or need to talk about tiffany anymore, so I accepted that and talked to you about other things, and then we would go out constantly. I figured it wasn't much of a matter to you- after all, I'm not close to any of my family who doesn't live in town. I figured you were over it.
But you weren't, and instead you were talking to this guy about your problems. Ok, whatever. At the end of the month he asked you out, and eventually you went out with him. It wasn't until early march that you actually started liking him though. And it wasn't until early march that you started to neglect me. For my birthday you gave me a little smile, a happy birthday, and some hairspray and shampoo. I'm not ungrateful about it I guess, but you gave me these things and kept talking about him. I got other more thoughtful gifts from people I didn't consider nearly as close as you. April, I put up with theless and less attention you give me. By may I have a new set of friends. By late may you've taken them from me, and hang out with them instead of me a lot. Early june I'm close with my friends you haven't taken from me yet, and I spill this story along with other things I don't want to share to some of them. You write a tumblr post, and even though you didn't use my name, you only suggest how I was a terrible friend all while your cousin was sick. This just broke my heart, and I locked myself in my room for days upset that that was how you felt about me. I went to school and stayed silent. People were concerned, but I wasn't going to just fall apart in front of them. So I kept my mouth shut. End of june, you hung out with me again, but you neglected me even when I was sitting right next to you to watch TV or play with your sister or dog.
All this summer we haven't made an attempt to hang out with eachother. Sometimes I'll feel like I miss you, and I IM or text you. You rarely respond. So you understand why I found other friends to share my secrets with, and other friends who are actually concerned about me, and don't do these things to me. So what happened, it was all you. What happened was I tried to stay best friends with you, but its hard when they don't want anything to really do with you. Its hard when they suddenly start acting different. Its hard when on some nights, they make you break down and cry.
If you missed me, you'd care about me. And its become obvious over the past 5 months that you don't give a crap about me anymore. And you know what? I hope you miss me now. Because I found out I don't need you. I'm perfect without you, I'm perfect with my real friends. So you don't get it I guess. Over the past few weeks. I discovered I hardly even want you.
I guess I could reply to your text with that. But I won't. Its not worth replying to. I hope the silence communicates a similar message that I wished to send to you.