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Random Randomness / Re: first world problems
« on: February 22, 2018, 17:30 »
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SO i didn't sleep l ast night and I was bricking it all day as one does when anxiety is basically thicc enough to become a black hole in your chest.
i had to leave a mindfulness thingy for people with mental illness and developmental disabilities an hour early (it was my fourth session and there's i think six more?? or so???? and they already knew beforehand anyways) and everyone there wished me luck bc they could see how anxious i was
gets into chester like two hours early and me and mum sit in a heaving Costa and I nearly die from sensory overload because it was loud and everything happened so much so I plugged in my music and tried to block everything out which is easier said than done especially when my food took like... five years
buuuuuuut we walked to the court (took 4ever bc my legs don't work like they used to before) and i went in and i knew i was Dying Inside but the security guards were really patient and soft-spoken (i had to empty my pockets and inform them about my knee/wrist braces and the bracelets that i can't take off without hurting myself bc i got searched!! for realsies!!!).
SOOOO anyway we get up into the waiting room (got bless elevators they are a thing of beauty) and the clerk to the tribunal comes out and informs me what's happening as i'm probably like, disassociating and panicking and generally having a Bat Time but my mum went in with me bc I think i would have deadass rather have tossed myself out of the second floor window than go in on my own
unfortunately for me tho my gp records didn't get released so the tribunal didn't have all the evidence?? the judge was really nice and patient and explained everything in Simple Words for my stupidass brain and said that the best course of action was to adjourn bc of the lack of evidence, but he wanted me to say yes rather than me say no and them to say "nah we adjourning anyways"
on the plus side it gives me more time to collate more evidence and for my family to issue impact statements on how they have seen my mental and physical state take the world's worst rollercoaster ride, and i signed a new consent form for my gp to release my records.
on the negative side i nearly burst into tears in front of the judge and the doctor and the disability expert (i did cry, but only silent tears bc I couldn't just burst into tears even tho my brain rly wanted to). they let me step out to get an adjournal letter printed as official evidence and for the consent form to be printed. although i tried not to cry i failed step one and ended up crying anyway. i managed to not ugly blubber but yeah
but this does mean that the tribunal is sure that i can win!! just not right now. if they didn't think i could win then they probably would've been like "begone thot" when i went in so suck on that dwp you're gonna owe me even MORE money now suckers (but with new evidence the DWP could actually change their minds on the PIP ruling and i won't have to go back to tribunal but gjkldfjd)
Spoiler: tribunal bull • show
SO i didn't sleep l ast night and I was bricking it all day as one does when anxiety is basically thicc enough to become a black hole in your chest.
i had to leave a mindfulness thingy for people with mental illness and developmental disabilities an hour early (it was my fourth session and there's i think six more?? or so???? and they already knew beforehand anyways) and everyone there wished me luck bc they could see how anxious i was
gets into chester like two hours early and me and mum sit in a heaving Costa and I nearly die from sensory overload because it was loud and everything happened so much so I plugged in my music and tried to block everything out which is easier said than done especially when my food took like... five years
buuuuuuut we walked to the court (took 4ever bc my legs don't work like they used to before) and i went in and i knew i was Dying Inside but the security guards were really patient and soft-spoken (i had to empty my pockets and inform them about my knee/wrist braces and the bracelets that i can't take off without hurting myself bc i got searched!! for realsies!!!).
SOOOO anyway we get up into the waiting room (got bless elevators they are a thing of beauty) and the clerk to the tribunal comes out and informs me what's happening as i'm probably like, disassociating and panicking and generally having a Bat Time but my mum went in with me bc I think i would have deadass rather have tossed myself out of the second floor window than go in on my own
unfortunately for me tho my gp records didn't get released so the tribunal didn't have all the evidence?? the judge was really nice and patient and explained everything in Simple Words for my stupidass brain and said that the best course of action was to adjourn bc of the lack of evidence, but he wanted me to say yes rather than me say no and them to say "nah we adjourning anyways"
on the plus side it gives me more time to collate more evidence and for my family to issue impact statements on how they have seen my mental and physical state take the world's worst rollercoaster ride, and i signed a new consent form for my gp to release my records.
on the negative side i nearly burst into tears in front of the judge and the doctor and the disability expert (i did cry, but only silent tears bc I couldn't just burst into tears even tho my brain rly wanted to). they let me step out to get an adjournal letter printed as official evidence and for the consent form to be printed. although i tried not to cry i failed step one and ended up crying anyway. i managed to not ugly blubber but yeah
but this does mean that the tribunal is sure that i can win!! just not right now. if they didn't think i could win then they probably would've been like "begone thot" when i went in so suck on that dwp you're gonna owe me even MORE money now suckers (but with new evidence the DWP could actually change their minds on the PIP ruling and i won't have to go back to tribunal but gjkldfjd)
