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even though i like to think i'm a nice person i'm also incredibly volatile. that's how i'm prone to getting into fights. i just can't help myself. ;_;

Had the same problem when I was a kid. Somehow, training in different martial arts helped me get over it, calm down and so on. It's not only a matter of 'being more able to kick butt than others', as many young people see it, but a matter of understanding that what you learn is for self-defence. It's to protect yourself, and others in need, from damage, not to damage other people. It is to protect yourself, and others around. NOT to damage or hurt others. Hence the name, self defence. It's what you use as a last resort, not in all cases where someone might provoke an argument. Then again, you rarely find a teacher that really gets that through his student's head, which is bad =/

Self defence is VERY different from hurting other people due to disagreements, arguments etc. It's used only, as the name suggests, to defend. As a last resort. Let alone the fact that if you use it in anything other than self defence, you can hurt the other and get into serious trouble.
Once again, its really up to a teacher to get it through their student's head, so they view it in this way as well. Nevertheless, self defence and martial arts classes and so on may help you calm down and be more calm and focused on defence rather than attack, so you could consider taking those up, which is both an educational and fun experience. Just remember. You're learning self defence, not attacking others.

I met my girlfriend/partner of 3 years in a women's clothes store, when me and a friend went in to try on women's clothes in public as part of a bet/dare game me and some friends were playing in the downtown shopping center, which involved bets and dares to pull pranks and stunts in public ;p
So yeah, doing incredibly stupid things with friends out of boredom does sometimes pay off ;p

Well I've been told there's no chance my driving license will be suspended for supposedly driving uninsured, as it was proven to be an error by the insurance company, something I had no idea about.  That, and by the end of the week, I hope to have enough for a nice new car, meaning new car within a couple of weeks =] 
The band I play in are also opening up for Arch Enemy in the summer.
Well, that and the fact that I'm off college this week =]

I haven't been paid yet, since last Tuesday, so I'm almost broke, except for back-up cash for necessities such as food/drink/transport. I'm also left without a car for now since mine was sold and I'm still looking for a new one. Those currently residing in UK may not see it as much of a big deal, cos in the UK, public transport is easily accessible etc. Here, though, there's barely any buses, which ALWAYS tend to arrive late, and taxis cost a kidney. In the past few days I must have walked around 10-12 miles per day at least -.-

Sylvan - Pane of Truth.
It's a really calming, serene piece of prog rock. Great listen after a tiring day, especially when driving home at night..

I was meant to have moved to the UK last fall, but that was delayed due to work/family/family's work etcetera reasons.
So I pretty much thought I would stay up until now. I have a girlfriend I love, close friends, etcetera here, and recently I find out that I'll be moving to the UK this year for sure. Already enrolled in uni and everything, parents searching for house/flat etc. I kinda always wanted to move away from here, but now that I am, it depresses me. Was forced to put up my car for sale last week. And I loved that car ;_; even knowing that I can study what I always wanted to now, can replace car with an even better one and so on doesn't help me much...

Dark Tranquillity - Iridium
Dark Tranquillity - Inside the Particle Storm.
Stormlord - Stormlord
Anorexia Nervosa - Sister September
Carpathian Forest - Spill the Blood of the Lamb
Limbonic Art - Moon in the Scorpio

Aaaand here goes, dunno if anyone remembers or recognises, but c'est moi =]


Most recent pic a friend decided to edit. Pretty much how I look now. Yes, I am the batman.


With my car after successfully washing it

me at local metal bar.
Definitely not drunk.

X Japan - Tears, Adagio - Promises...Yup, I'm in love -.-

Stratovarius - Coming Home, i've loved it for ages now. One of my fave bands of all time, and one of their best songs

Whenever you hear "Modest" you think OMFGZ special sweeper.