what's saddening you right now?

[Speak Now]

My sister left for college again.

[The Shrub Dragon]

I caught something. Again. Illness is horrible ;;

[sylar]

<sub>gender stuff goes here

stuff about being pathetically lonely goes here

self loathing here</sub>


i think i want to go for a walk outside today i don't want to be in this house any more

[lets all go out for some frosty chocolate milkshakes]

hair is completely misbehaving it cannot look unfrizzy at least once despite what i do to it it refuses to look nice at all
facial hair that i never wanted in the first place is being annoying and trying to shave has just resulted in me getting cuts all over my face and face feeling like i've rubbed it with sandpaper and patches of roughness everywhere those of you who don't have to shave i envy you so much
getting mildly worried about the amount of hair that falls out in the shower and convinced i'm slowly going bald i know it's natural shedding but i'm always paranoid of losing my hair
lower back is being stupid
usual self-dislike from the whole "wow i'm turning into an old man despite wanting to be neither of those two things"
curtains are drawn and rooms a mess and don't give a rat's anus

just being generally whiny and self-pitious today

there's a craft thing later on tonight and there are fajitas in the fridge so i am sure these things will help in some way
wish i wasn't being so silly cos it really does make me look stupid and dying swan but eh everyone has to sometimes

[OranBerrySandvich]

Bah... You know what I'mhere for... My ability to screw up everything I do, my inability to talk to someone's face, and the eventual realisation that love is a meaningless way of emotional self-harming.

[Sebastian Moran]

Quite frankly I've sod all to put to my name. I've no skills, no motivation, no connections. Neither ambition nor aspirations nor plans. Anything that I'd want to do is not going to happen for somebody like me, and the fact that I've already decided that fact is, to put it mildly, a drag. 
I don't even expect that if I sit here and do nothing that it'll all work out fine and a happy and successful life will be handed to me on a plate. I don't expect anything. 
So what the hell am I going to do with my life? 
 
I'm too afraid of failure and the subsequent embarrassment and mockery to try anything. There's nothing in which I specialise so I am mediocre at best in whatever I attempt. 
Every time that I try something and it goes badly, it reinforces the thought that that's what happens when you try to pretend you're normal. 
I don't want to bother people. I don't want to assert myself in case it's seen as being rude. 
It's pathetic. It's ridiculous. 
I don't know how to begin in any particular direction, and even if I did then I'd assume that there was no point in bothering because, you know, somebody is always more skilled, and they probably want it more, and, hell, they would deserve it more. 
 
I don't want to start embarking on something that I know will fail, even if I also know that the process will give me experience if nothing else. 
I don't want to try to sort things out that will involve arguments and telephone calls and asking favours and putting my foot down. 
I want to curl up here until everything goes away. 
Telling myself that I'm still a child and I'm not ready yet. I'll be ready later. There's still time. One day I'll be really good at talking to people and really clever and can be accosted by a stranger in the street without having a full-blown panic attack. 
Until then I'll just, you know, wait here until it happens. 
Bloody pathetic. 
 
So, the usual. In which I contemplate things and proceed to do nothing about them. 
 
Ha, just in case there was anybody on here who almost admired me. 
 

[PiPlUp_94]

My chest is starting to get sore again and i started hyperventilating earlier for no apparent reason :/ i swear to god if my asthma is coming back again i will cry. I thought after the cold weather eased off that would be it till winter. Obviously not.

[helenoftroy]

Why being online is so boring. It was good when I started 6 years ago.

[MOP]

I feel the need to post lots of things in this topic.  =[

[PiPlUp_94]

My friend got told that she'd never be able to join the RAF because of her hypermobility :/ it sucks because that's basically all she's wanted to do since first year and was deadset on it. She wanted to become a nurse if she didn't get in but she probably might not even to do that now :c
i feel so bad for her.

[Kdintranet & Scizau]

It's my nan's birthday next Saturday, and I can't get the day off work.

[Sebastian Moran]

everything. 
hopefully i'll cheer up a bit before Doctor Who's on. 
 
maybe my mood is just aggravated because of the heat. 
Been weeding for two hours in direct sunlight, mm, sensible 
 
I get home and my mum goes "hey, why don't you sit outside, get some sun?" 
 
 
 

[Liam]

It was so sunny and then the thunder came.

Now it's pissing down with rain.

[OranBerrySandvich]

My whole life, I've been trying. I just wanted people to laugh. Do they? Do they even tell me how to improve? No. They just tell me to leave. They mock me, and laugh at me, not with me. When I tried to pull my act together and grow up, it fell flat on it's face, and I ended up looking like a complete jerk. My friends are good to me, but I get the feeling that I'm usually not welcome. I've rarely gone outside to pass the time of my own free will, and I have the social skills of a mental defective. Maybe it's time I just packed in speaking to people altogether, I'll be less of an irritating lump on the face of society then...

[sylar]

Maybe it's time I just packed in speaking to people altogether, I'll be less of an irritating lump on the face of society then...

no don't.
take it from someone who did.
it's  bad idea.