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this is crazy. i just popped in to see what was up and seeing this thread made me weirdly emotional. its months old by now but happy 20 (almost 21) years fellas.

Not gonna lie, I don't really talk that much on discord, I like the layouts of forums and it is just more appealing to me I guess. 

i prefer forums too. always have. sucks theyre going out of style. i get why but it doesnt make me feel better about it lol.

*rises from the grave*

Don't ask me how I got back on here or why. Just saying hi. I used to be extremely active on this site eons ago before adult life jaded me and ruined everything. I started using this website when I was like 11 or 12, deleted my account, and made another one around the time I was 16.

I turn 30 next month... goodness gracious.

Also I'm shocked my old sig is still here.

if you ever see this give me your social medias or something i miss being tumglr mutuals 😭

rest in peace to avril lavigne. rest in peace love. rest in peace baby cakes. it's a real shame you never got to see gangnam style was. it's a real shame. you would've loved to know what gangnam style was.

i check in from time to time, both discord and site. but sometimes i dont really say much. i just lurk.

if you wanna chat it up, ʀᴜᴅʏ#6165 is my user and im online basically all the time except when im asleep lol.

as for beef, yeah, same here. its squashed flat. im 26 and dont care enough about old internet drama. we good. probably. unless... ?

me and my gf decided to go on a break and we can spin it how we like but its probably not gonna be a break that sees an end
were still staying friends and it hasnt been awkward at all because weve basically been Just Friends for the last year but man. knowing its basically over sucks.

justin bieber - sorry / love yourself
rihanna - rude boy
taylor swift - blank space / shake it off

My daydreams keep annoyingly reminding me of the freak who destroyed my Nintendo DS at the hostel I used to go to.

He was so simple minded, that I could effectively write his thought pattern in Basic programming!

Do
If object exixts
Then destroy it
Else destroy it
Loop

The programming code is probably as broken as he is!

make him buy you a new one. cant afford it? make him take out a loan, show him what destruction really is by destroying his credit score.

I want to buy a motherboard and a case (which is big enough for it to go in) so I can start building my own pc from scratch. My dad won't let me buy them because he said there might be compatibility issues. What compatibility issues? I haven't bought anything else to go with it yet!

https://pcpartpicker.com/list/

now he doesnt have an excuse, have at it

my wisdom teeth are growing in horizontally and one of them is infected ;__; cant see a dentist until monday...

mp100 is over so now i dont have things to do on mondays. like i really actually do but theyre not mob psycho 100 so like who cares

darn i dont even remember what i set mine as

probably "the void" tbh

pretty close actually

Botanicals and pretentiousness. Gin is the avocado of alcoholic drinks.

(sips gin loudly while holding the bottle so you know its gin im drinking and not water or vodka or some other prole drink) this guys just mad that he didnt really "get" neutral milk hotel's music (chuckles smugly) if he even knows who that is (sips gin louder than before)

straight whisky is nice but then again i just enjoy any alcohol that tastes like pure gasoline. if its not burning my stomach ulcers its not good.

i have a few problems...... most of them are work related like i just hate working with the public but also like....... now i have my thyroid out and im living life without having to work around the huge tumour in my neck that obstructs breathing and eating.... i decided to go back on T because i realised by thinking real hard that "im okay with androgyny" was just a way of saying "ill settle for androgyny because being on hrt might kill me  from the thyroid outwards" but now im like...... really trying to look after my skin bc its just bad but how am i meant to look after my skin when T will make me a greasy spotty ass anyway?

not to mention nobody will give me it because for some reason it was never actually added to my prescription. no wonder my body is a mess, i gave it 2 doses of Raw Hormones in a month then cut it off for 8 months.

the plus side is i got a haircut and now people at work are back to assuming im a guy again. i got called Miss and Lady and Maam constantly and it really bothered me more than i thought it would. like once or twice a week i could handle bc i never left the damn house but now im faced with it constantly and im like wow thats not nice. doesnt help that one of my coworkers has my deadname so i hear that like every 10 seconds and im like (:

anyway i stopped logging in to tumblr as much and this is the outcome. i realise my art has stagnated because i only did what tumblr liked which is a horrible idea and i also realised nobodys gonna call me he/him if i look like a lesbian on purpose. having to re-learn a bunch of things at 25 and begin my life at the same age while looking like an awkward teenage boy is so messy but at least my neck isnt swollen so people dont look at me funny and at least i stopped before i landed myself a kiwi farms thread

thanks for reading my blog post everyone ^____^

having a job is bad. like its good but its bad.