what's saddening you right now?

[#Emma---#]

@ Webbz: I wouldn't worry too much about your first set of A-level exams. Most people I know didn't do as well as they wanted for their first set of exams, and it's a huge step up from GCSE. I got a D in one of mine (which is now a B as of today). I have taken some of my AS exams alongside my Year 13 exams, and it's working out alright. I also know quite a few people who ended up failing miserably in Year 12, but are now doing really well. Only one person from my year decided to repeat the year, and there were a lot more of us who did quite badly to start with.

In May/June, I'm sure you'll improve a lot =] By then you should have got into A-levels more, and you will have more of an idea of what to expect. I found that getting bad results made me more motivated as it kind of shocked me, and now I'm doing much better (apart from in Physics, but we just don't get on =P). Try not to be too worried at this stage, and good luck =] I hope that makes you feel a bit better in some way. It's just such a huge step up, and I'm pretty sure not that many people end up with As and stuff straight away. Some people do, but a lot of people don't. You'll get there I'm sure ^^


As for what is depressing me, I'm kind of alright for once, apart from my Physics results. I got my first ever U which was quite disappointing (Physics results were B, E, U). I'm not too worried, as I should be able to get those results up a few grades if I put a lot of work into it. In my other subjects I have an A and a B (2 marks off an A!) so far, so it's ok. The only worry I have is that I only have a few months to pull this off with Physics. I need a C (preferably a B) to go to uni. Stupid lesson >> It really doesn't help that I don't like the teacher, and he's only recently got better as teaching us (as opposed to the text-book teaching he did before which was awful). It just seems like a totally different situation compared to my other subjects. It doesn't help that I genuinely now hate the lesson either. I will try a lot harder for these next few months though, as I really want to go to uni.

I'm also going to have to retake my 2h30m Geography exam, purely because I want a high A =P The current unit isn't very nice, so I would like a bit more security =P

I'm hoping that Physics paragraph doesn't kind of void what I said above it. I am improving in it, just not as quickly as in my other subjects. I will get there though so it's all good =] And I have improved massively in my other subjects compared to the start of Year 12 =]

[Webby2]

Yeah, I know. It's a bit of a kick up the arse really, but the same thing happened with my GCSEs. I didn't get as good as I should have. I don't know but it just seems to be a constant cycle of me never reaching my potential anymore. It's not exactly the difficulty of it all, I understand it all, but when it comes to putting pen to paper my head's just not there. I can't revise; I'm not a good reviser and I've never had to revise or try for anything. It's all well and good having people telling you to find a way to revise, but I just can't.

The thing is as well, I did so much better in my mocks (not including GS weirdly enough). I got a B in Business, a C in Maths and a D in Law, and for that I didn't revise at all as well. It's just hit me for six really, and I'm not too sure whether I'll bounce back from it. The main thing for me is not to stay behind; I don't want to be intervention and I definitely don't want to be held back for a year. This may seem a bit dodgy but I always prefer to see myself as an alphamale figure and now I feel so small =/

It's all well and good saying these things, but I've got to get it done at the end of the day. My coursework for Business will pull me through (on course to get a sound A on that0 but the others I'm just worried about, especially having all my confidence knocked.

Thanks for the support guys, it's means a lot =]

[sylar]

the fact that i spent 3 hours talking to someone about education and all they told me was how i'm never going to succeed in anything ever.

[Sunnii]

That I have to sell all my birthday presents to get a new guitar since someone broke mine ... Which kinda sucks :/ I got some good stuff to .. and now I have to get rid of them D=

[sylar]

some girl walking behind me in town pointed out how bad i looked today. yes i know it was me, she pointed at me and said 'state of her' to her friends who proceeded to giggle at me. the worst part is i thought i looked alright today, kinda better than i've ever looked. ._.

[Liam]

I have to wait a week to get my snake.

[kerri-anne]

Just because ethan's had his tonsils out and been in all week doesn't mean he had stay the night does it...We were going to find the Arceus event but now we can't!

Life Does not revole round my sister and her kids..!

I mean what about holly my un born baby, no one cares all they care about is Ethan!

[sylar]

lol b/c getting your tonsils out isn't anything to miss a pkmn event over n_n also this baby thing just reeks of Luke innit

[~Evanscence~]

i injured my achillies the second track practice. i might not even be ready for the first meet.

[EMPIRE]

I have a BANGING headache. Haven't had one in a while either.

[kerri-anne]

my sister has totally wasted my day!
she phoned us up at 9 in the morning and my asked what time is she coming for her son. My sister told my mum " You bring him home because I can't be bothered collecting him"

we took him back at 11 and my sister said.
" I don't want him back intil the afternoon mother"

[f3raligatr]

The fact that I completely messed up my exams, so if my retakes in the summer don't go well, I'll be either retaking Year 12 or going to College. I decided to not run for Head Boy because of it as well since it'd just add too much stress, after all, I have quite a lot at the moment. I got:

General Studies - B
Key Skills - Pass
Maths - D
Business - E
Law - E

I did best in the two I don't care about, and worst in the two that I want to do at University. Urgh, I don't even know where my life is going anymore =S.

If it means anything, although I know I'm not the best of examples, I was the same in my first year at college. I was very wide-eyed at the new style of education, far less restricted, and traded my studies to go to gym, play pool etc pretty much all of my first year. In the January exams, I failed my Computing and Physics exams, scraped a B in Maths and got, the only thing I was consistently interested in, a good B in my Accounts. The shock pretty much messed with me, in fact I was considering dropping Physics and Computing there and then and concentrating full time on gym in attempt to lose my weight and push for a wrestling scholarship. Wild dreams, yeah, but I stayed on.

In the summer, I think I scraped an E overall in both Physics and Computing (gave Computing up, was just a waste of time really) and got B's in Maths and Accounts. Didn't really care, though.

Wasn't until October came when my friends got given chances to apply for Cambridge that I really realised I'd not lived anywhere near up to my potential and pulled my thumb out of my arse in attempt to go better. Turned it around in Physics, resitting the first year to get a B overall at AS and got a B overall in Maths, C in Accounts, and that was suffering from depression at the time (probably would've achieved an A in Maths if it wasn't for it). Could've got into my hometown University, but kind of wanted to go to Sheffield (lord knows why, although hindsight is a wonderful thing)..

The point I'm trying to make is that this is a time where you take it not as a "Oh, I'm useless at it" remark and more of a wake-up call. You know your potential, you know how well you can really do. Use this as inspiration to spur on forward towards University.

And try not to think about the future. Sure, hypocrite I may be for saying it because I'm horrible for getting down with doing so, but it's the present that counts and it's down to you right now to set yourself up as highly as you can to get that future you think you want. Worry about that when the time comes.

[Webby2]

That's the problem though, my GCSEs were meant to do that as they were bad and I said that I could have done much better. I never pulled my finger out, and I can't see it happening now. I don't know why; I don't have the motivation I did and I don't even have any intention of getting it back. I'm on a downward spiral I fear and I don't know how to react to it.

[Cecily and Pikachu]

I have next to no money =[

[KristenAkaRaynie-BbyCakes]

Guh. Me ish depressed cos my so called 'Friends' are gossiping about me. I mean come on, you call yourself my friend, yet you say the meanest things about me. =/.