what's saddening you right now?

[Dragonpika]

Last night I was playing Pokémon in bed and hatched a Shiny Cottonee with Prankster and flawless Speed
went to save
and then opened my eyes and it was 4 hours later and my battery had died
I didn't finish saving

my baby ;_____;

[Liam]

That's gotta be painful, Kay ;;

[Shaymin]

I found out how my teacher died.

...she killed herself.

...i'm just
going
to go
and cry

[sylar]

wow rad
there was a moment of realisation earlier when i realised i have like
nobody irl that isnt family
which isnt bad but itd be nice to have friends lol im pathetic

im teeming with mental issues that push people away without me even trying

then youve got these idiots who try to help but they just
dont get it

its nice theyre trying to help
but when i confide in you that im dealing with depression and serious anxiety
dont tell me 'oh just cheer up and stop worrying so much'

you complete tool dont you dare say that to me

im so sick of people im a waste of space i just want to die without any repercussions.

[bull shark]

coming back and finding the place dying.

sad.

[Clairefable]

I'd really like to be around someone who doesn't make me feel like crap. brb crying into my ice cream

[The biscquiat dragon]

S*** just took a turn for the worse.
Mom's been stealing pain pills from her work, she's being pressed for 5 years jail time, my 5 year old brother is going to be taken away if a blood relative doesn't claim him, I might have to seek refuge with my dad in his 1 bedroom.
My older sister might have to work at my mom's old office, meaning she won't be able to stay home with her new born. Her boss might cover mom's expenses for the house so that we can stay here IF she complies
We've only been moved in for 2 months and wow...

A lot of people are extremely reliant on my mom. My sister and her husband moved in while she was going through pregnancy, and me, all under one roof.

I'm not quite sure where I'll end up but I don't care because it isn't even about me.

Now as it turns out, mom checked into 30 day inpatient rehabilitation earlier this morning. Her boss has given her a sizable leave and our bills are paid, and the house is secure, including me, for at least the next 6 months.
Her court date is on Sep 12 and the charge could range from a fine to up to 5 year jail time.
I don't even know where she's going to go from here, she's lost her job and no one understands what will happen.

My older sister is working at the office after all, to pay for food. Maybe she'll be able to work from home.

My grandfather will be staying in the case of mom's absence to keep my brother.

My grandmother is helping me with resources for my own mental illnesses so I can get my life on track, and also help.

I think I'm going to be okay. I have some opportunities ahead of me, even if I have to chase them. I just want to talk it out...

[Shaymin]

seems one of my other guinea pigs has bitten my youngest one twice
i hope it doesn't get infected. i can afford the vet bill, it's just... my poor baby :c

[Makoto Niijima]

I'm not feeling all that well today =(

[OVOxo]

I'm having one of those days where everything is coming together in a bad way. I don't feel like doing anything anymore.

[Clairefable]

RIP Terry Nutkins I haven't felt like this since Tony Hart died D:

[Shaymin]

my role play partner is feeling down and I don't know what to do... :C

[OVOxo]

^ Just try and be supportive. I know it sounds vague but just balance it around what makes them smile... I dunno, just be a friend to them =]

A lot of stuff right now is messing with my mind. Beer was a bad choice. What makes it worse is that I just want to keep on drinking and that I don't want to get into all the stuff that's making me feel bad. Meh.

I'll just drink it off. Probably won't work but it's worth a try.

Oh yeah how distant I feel towards people, both on here and irl. I seemed to have pushed people away and it's only just coming back to hit me now, and I get the feeling I'm doing the same with Uni too. It'll probably happen when I go into work too. It's just one of those things I guess.

EDIT: Also realised I've let quite a lot of people down. Crap.

Ehh I'm just a waste of space really. Basically if you want to do well don't get on with me otherwise you'll just get let down! Whether on here or irl!

Also lol 60% of my PMs come from myself. I really need to stop searching for stuff that's making me feel worse lol

[sylar]

when youre still following your ex and his friend on dumblr and theyre talking about how much fun theyve had together in the past and how theyre such good friends and u kinda just want to cry b/c you never made him that happy


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[Shaymin]

So, my role play partner that was feeling down the other week? My last post here?

She feels that I'm stalking her, and instead of telling me herself, she's got one of her friends to make a passive aggressive post about me, that's left me in tears for the past hour and a half.

This is why I never used to open up to people! THIS ALWAYS HAPPENS! I'm never going to be happy because people always leave me, like some abandoned puppy they've taken in and got bored of.

I need a bloody cuddle...