what's saddening you right now?

[sylar]

i turned down an invitation to hang out with people
because they mentioned dancing and i cant
dance or be around large crowds

i turned down the chance to have friends for one night
because im scared of people

haha
ha

im pathetic

[sans the skeleton]

Maybe I should just stop talking everywhere. Forever. Every time I try to be nice or socialize I am just beaten down (not literally) and ridiculed. It's not nice. I'm crying right now and while that may seem like a over reaction I just want to be normal and actually liked. It's not just here (although it has happened, I'll shut up about this though) but it has just happened to me very bad on another site I go on... I goofed up by being myself and then the entire room muted me and proceeded to bad mouth me and I couldn't say anything back. I tried to do the mature thing by adding someone and apologizing and telling them I didn't do anything wrong ( I didn't, someone overreacted. Honest )  but then the person told me i was spamming them (I genuinely wasn't. Is 3 or so messages (less then 20 words total) spamming?) and read my messages out and it got bad so I'm just sitting there saying nothing because I just fail at life.

Why was I even brought into existence? I'm like an appendix or something ._.

can someone please tell me what part of life I don't understand? It all seems pointless.

I'm not trolling or anything.

[Sebastian Moran]

or just stop caring what other people think: i mean be polite/humane but accept that not everyones going to like you.
make fun of your own flaws instead of dwelling on em. 
if youre called out on something then just apologise once, clearly and w/o making excuses, then move on. 
treat mistakes as "ok now i know what doesnt work" not as "i should NEVER TRY AGAIN sob". 
 
anyway here at least? this is a pokemon forum, its a sure bet that at least 99% of the people on here are going to be ranging from moderately to severely socially awkward. its not like theres any real pressure to impress anybody. 
 
i mean yeah easier said than done, hell i dont even take my own advice. 
if youre feeling kinda lethargic then its a good idea to go for a walk, go out and buy some food or something, i know that nothing makes me feel more listless and unmotivated than sitting around with oodles of free time, go figure. even if i hate going out to lectures and stuff when its 8am and the world outside my bed is freezing, the moment i have some structure to my day i feel like i can do stuff. 
so like give yourself a kick up the rear end to go out and about and once you do that it can be like its jump-started your brain into going WOAAAH we are actually doing things here wow ok!! 
 
or if you cant manage that then cook or make something, do a load of washing, tidy up, hoover, rearrange your books, basically kickstart the whole process so its not "sigh i didnt do anything except for sit around all day" and youve got something to work from, even if you dont do anything else then you did SOMETHING that you didnt have to which will boost your opinion of yourself. 
 
failing that just get drunk. 
 

[Clairefable]

I worry more and more than I am becoming a (vaguely) functioning alcoholic.

[Sizacu]

I'm getting so distressed over the air pollution in China ;;

[MOP]

The big list of things to do while I was off is still there. I think washing my bed sheets was the only thing I did manage.

[sylar]

i was going through a tag on my tumblr and there was a lot of posts about how much i love my ex on them


hahahaahahahhaha i miss him so much hahahaha he doesnt give a damn about me any more hahahahaaha i hate everything why cant i move on hahahahaha

[Kpyna]

my boyfriend is dropping out of school to get his GED and he's probably going to move down to North Carolina with his dad to get all of that sorted out.

[Sebastian Moran]

wait whats a boyfriend 
 

[Inferna]

yay bursting into tears for no reason ugh

[sylar]

wait whats a boyfriend 
 

idk these teens have some wacky slang these days

[XK|X Litwick]

It has been a really bad week. I have been having quite a lot of bad luck. I hope this changes soon.

[Shaymin]

Didn't enjoy All Time Low much last night :C I woke up feeling sick yesterday, wasn't too good when we got there, all the pushing and shoving made me feel sick aaaaaand i nearly got crushed. Then I nearly threw up.
And then got in this morning to my dad saying we need to go home early because Mum hurt herself getting out of the car this morning so we need to pick up my brother.

[Webby]

I spend more time with books than I do with people right now and it sucks. You know you have no life when the most interesting thing to do on a Saturday afternoon is dissertation reading because your friends make plans to do stuff and don't even invite you. Just further proof I'm always the backup friend.

[Clairefable]

I'm pretty sure my guinea pig hates me